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Showing posts with label KM. Show all posts
Showing posts with label KM. Show all posts

Friday, 1 October 2010

A woman of many selves

"Come, my unseen, my unknwon, let us talk together" - KM´s Journal

Anne E. Rice: Portrait of Katherine Mansfield







During the course of her life Katherine Mansfield considered her not one, but many selves, in many different ways. According to Clarin Tomalin (one of her biographers), - Mansfield transformed into multiple alternative versions to suit different moods, different friends, diferent facets of her personality: Kass, Katie, KM, Mansfield, Katherine, Julian Mark, Katherine Schönfeld, Matilda Berry, Katharina, Katiushka, Kissienka, Elizabeth Stanley, and Tig. These are a whole bunch of names! Katiushka and Kissienka, I believe, were due to the fact that she really loved Chekhov - who was a also a great influence on the way she developed her short stories.



Her stories, although so sad sometimes, are fascinating. I was struck by them at the time I was in college and the first one i could read was Miss Brill. This story is a perfect description of the human loneliness of an old lady. Most of them deal with these simple situations of one´s life: she wrote basically about how difficult was for a woman to live in a world of men. Some of her themes were so unusual for the time she was a writer, like the story «At the Bay» in which she reveals the fact that the main character, Linda Burnell, has this deepest grudge against life because she had to be a mother instead of an adventurer «in the rivers of China». There is this special scene in which she looks at her baby boy and admits she doesnt like him - it is really a beautiful scene for such a sad revelation. 

She had to be a very strong woman at the time she decided to leave her family in New Zealand - where she was born - in order to try to be a writer in London and gather all the experiences she could get in her life. And she did have a bunch of these experiences: she lived the First World War years and travelled around Europe very often, just by herself. Unfortunately, they did not end very well - she died from a tuberculosis. However, she strongly wrote until the very last days of her life.


This part of Hampstead recalls Katherine to me - that faint ghost, with the steady eyes, the mocking lips, &, at the end, the wreath set on her hair - Virgina Woolf in 1925



Mansfield was also known to be the friend (and at the same time the  rival) of another famous writer: Virgina Woolf. At the time Mansfield died, Woolf published a letter feeling quite devastated about the matter. Woolf also used to say that both of them shared something special: «What a queer fate it is - always to be the spectator of the public, never part of it. This is part of the reason why I go weekly see K.M in Hampstead, for there at any rate we make a public of two» (Virgina Woolf´s diary - 1918). 

I had the luckiest fate by choosing to make my master in Women´s Studies here, because one of my teachers, who is helping me in my paper, also has a masters in KM´s fiction. It has been very good to study about this crazy life she had and to go deep down in her short stories, cause some of them have changed in me the way i see some things in life.



One of many letters Woolf wrote to Mansfield
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I´m drooling over this chair! I picture myself on a balcony, sunny day, reading the Garden Party and Other Stories!

Amazingly cute - «via»


If you want to know more about KM, please visit: http://www.katherinemansfield.com/ 

Monday, 5 July 2010

Summer Sky or the Nostalgic Days


“The heavens opened for the sunset tonight. When I have thought the day folded and sealed, came a burst of heavenly bright petals…I sat behind the window, pricked with rain, and looked until that hard thing in my breast melted and broke into the smallest fountain, murmuring as aforetime, and I drank the sky and the whisper.”

 Katherine Mansfield, Journal, 1914.

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Summer sunset skies come to my mind in the shape of old memories of my life...like the days i spent «standing at the beach, staring at the sea» - The Cure reference here - a certain lazyness and melancoly, well described by Janis Joplin in «Summertime», a feeling of longing to be somewhere else in the world, a nostalgic feeling of an old first lover, an almost untouchable feeling of childhood - the immeasurable feeling of happiness i felt as a kid - and finally, the good and old bike days around my neighborhood.

This is summer to me.

Wednesday, 30 June 2010

Heart.

His heart felt out of the side window of his studio, and down to the balcony of the house opposite – buried itself in the pot of daffodils under the half-opened buds and spears of green…

 Katherine Mansfield, Feuille D´Album, 1920.

Friday, 20 November 2009

People.









"I don´t believe in human soul. I never have. I believe that people are like portmanteux - packed with certain things, started going, thrown about, tossed away, dumped down, lost and found, half emptied suddenly, or squeezed fatter than ever, until finally the Ultimate Porter swings them on to the Ultimate Train and away they rattle..."

Je Ne Parle Pas Français - Katherine Mansfield, in Bliss and other stories, 1920.

Wednesday, 23 September 2009

Katherine Mansfield



"if one wishes to satisfy the desires of nature one must be strong enough to ignore the facts of nature"

The Modern Soul - In a German Pension - 1911